My naughty lil Kitty

The sky was dark and it started to rain.
I was still tapping the soil to make sure it's firm enough so that the stray dogs wouldn't be able to find you.

Months ago, you were still a lil kitty. A very unfriendly, naughty and uncontrollable one.
I did not wanna spend even a minute on you.
You scratched me, bite me when I wanna play with you.
You bullied Coco even though your size were smaller than hers.
You were the most rude and naughty kitty I had.

Until then, one month ago, I was back from university.
I still did not want to spend a single time on you, as usual.
But when I first saw you after some time staying at home, I found that you had grown into a fit, smart, beautiful cat with nice white fur and some orange spots.
But still, you still did the old things, what make it worse is you were running, messing and hiding all around the house.

However I found something good in you after quite some time. You were not picky on food. And you know how to get our attention when you wanna eat. You had grown into a quite adorable cat.

I started to treat you better, play with you, cuddle you and pat you on your head.
Well, sometimes you get crazy when I played too much with you.
But I feel so happy and grateful that finally I can hug you and pat you in my arms.
There were days that I scolded you because you were so bad on Coco. You were scared by me and you ran around the house, hiding yourself behind the shelf. I feel so bad that I scared you.

I still remember the day that I lost sight on you after you got chased by the stray dogs.
You were following us when I was walking Coco, but I did not notice that there were stray dogs around.
Suddenly, I heard barks and when I turned behind, I saw you got chased by two stray dogs.
I quickly picked up Coco and shouted the stray dogs away but it was too late.
I looked around for you but you weren't there. I was worried that they had bitten you.
Luckily, you came back that night.

I went back Uni on last Sunday.
I had a bad feeling that you might leave us in these few days, cuz the cats we adopted always died after I had feelings on them.
Until two days ago, Mum called me, she said you were lost again and she was worried. Very. We didn't talk much that night, I feel how sad and worried she was.

Today I came back home and yes, I smell your body from the car parking outside the house.
We found your body in the engine part of the car and we decided to get your body out from it.
I look at your face, you still looks good.
I feel your body, it's cold and bloated.
Mum cried so hard and blamed herself that she killed you accidentally. I cried with her.
The haze was serious that time but we only smell your body.
We tried so hard to get your body out of there, but we failed to.
We decided to go to the car technician and he managed to get your body out from there.

We brought you home and decided to bury you.
There was a stray dog outside. I shouted at him. Somehow, I started to dislike stray dog but I know that they are innocent. They are just being them.
He came closer and watched me digging a hole for you.
I sent you into it and buried you properly.

I never thought that I will cry for your death because I disliked you.
Few days ago, my lecturer asked the class who has cat at home. I raised my hand because I had you. I even showed my friend the scars you marked on me excitedly, but I didn't know things went like this.

The sweet memories we had together will be remembered for some time even though just a little of them. Rest in peace my dear lil kitty. I hope you enjoyed the time being with us and sorry for not loving you as much as I should...