A Distance of Life

Oh... Today was and unlucky day... Arghh... Today I went to listen undang with my sis... I knew something bad will happened... And it really happened... Listen undang at first we hv to take colour blind test... I gt one mistake! But it's ok... That's not the point... Then we go cap cap jari... =.=" When until my turn... I give my IC to the ppl who incharge... She say... " U punya kad tak boleh guna lah~" "O..." I said... But actually should be "Ha?! What?!" "U perlu buat satu smart card..." "OK..." "15 ringgit..." "ha?" I cant hear clearly what she said... "15 ringgit" "?" "15 ringgit!" "Oh... tapi saya tak cukup duit..." and blah blah blah... She called me to tell the agent about it... Then I wait the agent come back from car test... After quite long time, my sis's friend lend me RM10... Then i go line up again... Wait wait and WAIT! Then the agent come back.....

Merry Christmas to everyone!!! Well, I don't have any plan to celebrate this christmas eve and christmas... Feel kinda bored actually... Bored of this holidays and also worried for next year... I was wondering did I just celebrate 7 years of christmas like this?? I remember that last time my Father got decorate the 'christmas tree' outside my house... It's beautiful... And at least got some christmas atmosphere... ^-^ In this age... I thought teenagers usually will celebrate with their love one or friends... And I hope that I can celebrate it with him too... XD I think my friends will also like to celebrate it with their love one... For those who're still single... Of cuz with their family or maybe friends... Of cuz, Let's wish everyone will feel happy all the time~ Stay away from what that harmed... Appreciate the peace and wamth in ur life...

It was the first time I date with him... Hehe... Quite enjoy it and it's perfect too... Only gt one problem that is~ xxx But that prob i still can accept lar... haha We spent money on food food and food... Thought wanna buy a handbag de... But see ha see ha also dunno want to buy which one... He say those handbags look like aunty use one... >. Then at last, i din buy handbag... We still went to Kbox cuz the movie hvn start... Although is expensive la... But at least can spent some time with him... Cy and her bf gt go too... so we all sing together... After that we watch movie... haha... Tron legacy not bad also ah... a bit touch for me... Thought it's boring de cuz danny said so... But luckily not~ XD

Mom going to Singapore now... With my aunt and her son... Vacation... Fun... But it's tiring... Poor mum... Gonna be very bored maybe... Hope u can have nice days at there... Well... Just relax yourself and enjoy the fun... Dun keep thinking about us... We can handle problems by ourselves already... Just take care...

Finally finally... I got back home d... 3 days 2 nights nursing course is boring sometimes... Can't forget how they 'torture' us the first day... Eat lunch at 3 something and still mention it is for tea time... oh no... Is bread... Kayang bread! But luckily the breakfast on the second and third day of the course was quite delicious... haha...=)... I eat a lot actually... hehe... dunno why actually... Just feel like very hungry... I love meat so much... hotdog and chicken... Wow! Nice ah... haha! During the course... actually i already quite know how to do the procedure... went to the course for 3 or 4 times already... everytime go there is because of competition... Lazy eh~ Kinda like wasting time there... and we sleep at around 12a.m... other school girls quite disturbing... cuz they keep chatting with each other although is already late... The first night they chat until 2 something... oh my god... crazy de them... make me can't sleep well also... But something made m...

有一种，很过意不去的感觉... 虽然说，还是朋友，但是实际上，他好像远离我了... 我知道我把他给伤害了，是多深？ 今天他有信息我一下，可是我很随便得回他的信息... 不是因为我不想睬他，只是当时我很忙... 希望他不要误会... 实在很对不起... 希望我们还可以是很好的朋友...

I didn't think much for this relationship... Who cares what will happen next time actually... I know I'm not the one who say yes or no... Cuz he seem already know what my answer will be... I just really wanna be with him... No matter how much he hurt me... Dun care is real or not... Cuz I already get confused... Like what ppl always said... 'Love is blind'... I don't understand why but I'm doing it... Jo yee is right... It made me become a fool... Or let's say... What I have now, is what I've wish...

I dunno what to say... Today many things happened... All are UNUSUAL~ ABNORMAL~ WEIRD!! First thing, he suddenly wan get back together with me... And again, I accepted... Second, Shing suddenly ask me something weird... But din mention why... This is the first secret~ Third, kw ask me something... Then some advice... And suddenly say something weird... Okay... Another secret again... Fine... My curiousity get active again... Why everyone sure has a or two++ secret?? = (...

It has been two months long since he break up with me... Today... And again... We get back together again... How could this happened?? Last night I was still dreaming about him and her... And now... Everything seems so fake but is true... I dunno why he suddenly say that to me... I'm still blurring for what he said but I know that he lied me a lot... Everything is just a lie cover another... I'm afraid this time he lie me again... But i gotta believe him... Who knows what will happen next time?

今天约了一班朋友去打羽球... 还以为自己迟了，原来大家也还没到... 在那里，看到一只小狗，十分可爱的~ > 哎, 一开场，手就痛了... 还好，由于不是以发泄的态度去打，打到蛮爽下...^^ 今天恰好有机会和他对比，是双打，第一场，他就给我和伙伴打到可谓落花流水... 看到他好像很不爽了... 这就是他其中的弱点... 很容易就不爽... 而且说真的，他不爽那时，我会觉得很怕... 脸臭臭的，不好看... 想一想，自己好像放下了那一段感情... 打完球后，去吃麦当劳~ 啊... 好吃！ 第一次跟他们去吃麦当劳，好开心~

最近开始feel到开学的压力了~ 好像有很多事要忙... Kempen Ahli Baru, lembaga pengawas, sukan, first-aid comp, chinese societ... 嗯... 的确很多下... 唉... 刺激又让人紧张的一年来了...

I'm not saying self have to come first... I just wanna make sure that I totally forget him... Then I only can 100% focus on other ppl... If I still cant forget him or let it go... How can I treat another fairly?? Is unfair... So, it's better if I don't involve in any about it now...

I got nothing to say to myself... I remember last time when i found someone fall in love to me... I'll avoid him... But nearly, I found a friend got the feel to me... I admit, I really got feel to him... Therefore, I told him to wait me... He say he'll take it as a risk... But after somedays, I realize I still haven't forget him... I wanna tell that guy who was waiting me, you know what happened when I saw him?? Everything and everyone around me will be gone... And my mind just full of him... I know is hard for me to forget him... I'm sorry to tell you to wait me... I decided not to start a new relationship or even any about it ... I won't take another relationship if I find myself haven't forget the old one... Sorry to make you deeply in hurt... You should have sometime to forget about it, at least, shorter than if you continue waiting me... I know, it's cruel... But I never regret for it... Sometimes, something cruel maybe good... I know I look very greed...